The battle between Good & Evil

In the Taoist “Yin Yang” symbol (representing the balance between chaos and order), there is a little chaos in order and a little order in chaos. Or you could say a little light in darkness, and a little darkness in light.

There’s so many things this applies to in reality and life. One I want to focus on today is the battle between good and evil. “It seems you cannot have good without the potential for evil. If there was good without evil, it isn’t really evil, because you wouldn’t have a choice. Good has to be chosen over evil, it’s the choosing that makes it good”.

The fallen archetype is evil because it has chosen it over good. And it seems that most evil is done by people imagining they’re doing good. No one thinks they’re the bad guy. For example the church burning and drowning women they saw as ‘witches’. Or Hitler killing Jews. Adolph Hitler read Nietzsche, mistook the diagnosis for prescription, and proceeded to act out the worst of the scenarios Nietzsche could imagine, ironically incorporating precisely that nationalism and anti-semitism that Nietzsche most despised.

“Evil is the force that believes its knowledge is complete.” – Jordan Peterson

There’s many more examples of this in history and all over the world today, it’s what one of the great thinkers, an author and self-described agnostic mystic Robert Anton Wilson termed ‘The Right Man‘.

The Right Man is always right, “the Violent Male—the extreme form of the Right Man1—edits out the suffering and pain he causes to others. That is only appearance and can be ignored. In The “Real” Universe, the victim is only one of Them—one of all the rotten bastards who have frustrated and mistreated the Right Man all his life. In existential reality, a large brutal male is beating a child; in The “Real” Universe of self-hypnosis, the Right Man is getting his just revenge on the oppressors who have abused him.” – Robert Anton Wilson

“The totally convinced and the totally stupid have too much in common for the resemblance to be accidental.” – Robert Anton Wilson

In Taoist metaphysics, distinctions between good and bad, along with other dichotomous moral judgments, are also perceptual, not real. Everyone feels correct from their perspective.

“The pride of the intellect: The intellect is the most incredible human capacity. It is the highest of all human capacities, actually. However, it is also the thing that can go most terribly wrong because the intellect can become arrogant about its own existence and its accomplishments, and it can fall in love with its own products. That’s what happens with ideologies. You become obsessed with a human-constructed dogma of which you believe is 100% right, and it eradicates the necessity of anything transcendent.” – Jordan Peterson

“In a conflict, each side sees itself as good and justified and the enemy as evil.” Carolyn Kaufman, PsyD

“Reprehensible acts are often disguised by intentions people have convinced themselves are good.”  Carolyn Kaufman, PsyD

“People who do evil have justified the morality of their actions to themselves in some way. By convincing themselves their behaviour is moral, these people can separate and disengage themselves from immoral behaviour and its consequences.” – Albert Bandura

“Gradually it was disclosed to me that the line separating good and evil passes not through states, nor between classes, nor between political parties either — but right through every human heart — and through all human hearts. This line shifts. Inside us, it oscillates with the years. And even within hearts overwhelmed by evil, one small bridgehead of good is retained. And even in the best of all hearts, there remains … an un-uprooted small corner of evil.

Since then I have come to understand the truth of all the religions of the world: They struggle with the evil inside a human being (inside every human being). It is impossible to expel evil from the world in its entirety, but it is possible to constrict it within each person.” – Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, The Gulag Archipelago 1918-1956

The road to hell is paved with good intentions.


Things to help with fear, anxiety, panic.

This is my personal list, a place to start for a fellow sufferer. Mostly short term help when in desperate need. Also this is for when you are not actually in any physical danger, just mental and emotional torment for seemingly no reason.

  1. Different Teas (Camomile, sleep easy, white tea, sage tea etc)
  2. Incense (Tibetan, lavender etc)
  3. Benzodiazepines ( prescribed by doctor, be very careful, risk of addiction, 1 every 3 days is what I was told is okay.
  4. Music
  5. Calming sounds (Nature, ASMR, frequencies, religious, spiritual)
  6. Sound healing – using humming. Breathe in and then hum one tone out – three times
  7. Talking to a friend, mentor or someone else
  8. Welcoming, allowing , inviting in the feelings and not trying to escape them
  9. Sleep
  10. Rocking
  11. Singing
  12. Breathing deep / breathe in deep, hold and count for 6 seconds, then breathe out
  13. Wim Hoff breathing technique
  14. Meditation / Mantra meditation, just make one up and repeat and focus on it, maybe a nice long one that’s relaxing to say
  15. Yoga
  16. Try telling the feeling to stop
  17. Pray for help to cope with feeling
  18. Pray for feeling to be eased
  19. Pray for courage to face the feeling
  20. Bath
  21. Essential oils diffuser (lavender etc)
  22. Hugs from pets or people
  23. Affirmations
  24. Finding and releasing tension in the body
  25. Don’t believe your thoughts
  26. Ask for the presence of Luci The black dragon to protect you from negativity
  27. Ask the entity called Dragon to help you cope with fear, be courageous in the face of fear
  28. Say ‘Jesus’ or ‘love’ anything bad apparently can’t be here when Jesus’s name or love is invoked
  29. Tap into energies of crystals, stones, chemicals, drugs that have a calming effect. No need to take anything. Just ask to tap into whatever you want, see what happens.

That’s all I can think of for now. Good luck to you all. Hope this is helpful. Comment any ideas you might have.

15 Reasons for a “Bad” Magic Mushroom Trip

This is according to the crystal, at this moment in time. (Nothing is set in stone, new things can be discovered)

“Beware of unearned wisdom.” – Carl Jung talking about psychedelics 

“Without having the appropriate respect, understanding and maturity to see that psychedelics can be viewed as both sacraments and tools that hold tremendous healing potentialities to better one’s life (don’t get me wrong, they can also be used for recreational purposes too), it can be difficult to have the wisdom to surrender into the discomfort of an unpleasant experience, and to still see the benefit in a challenging ordeal.” – Chris Kelly

  1. A challenging lesson
  2. Mixing magic mushrooms with certain other drugs like alcohol 
  3. Unresolved personal issues.
  4. A stronger dose than a person was expecting.
  5. Not surrendering to the psychedelic experience (fighting and struggling against it)
  6. Not respecting the psychedelic. 
  7. Not being in the right state of mind (bad mood, not in the mood, internal conflict etc)
  8. Not being in the right environment (Feels or is unsafe, uncomfortable, unfamiliar)
  9. Not being with the right people (Safety, trust)
  10. Not knowing what you’re doing or not being with someone else who knows what they’re doing
  11. Not being protected from negative energies (self, others, environment)
  12. Not being cleansed of negative energies (self, others, environment)
  13. Not being protected from negative entities
  14. Not being protected from negative dimensions
  15. Not being grounded 

    A blog post about how to have a good Magic Mushrooms trip will follow. And a blog posts about DMT trips.

    This article has some great information about this:

The 7 Stages of Wisdom

…According to the crystal at this moment in time.

  1. Seeking knowledge.

  2. Trying to figure everything out.

  3. From seeking knowledge to seeking wisdom.

  4. Understanding & realising your own ignorance. (The more you learn, the more you realise how little you know).

  5. Realising there’s no final answers in certain types of thought. And realising thinking is not the only way to know things.

  6. From seeking wisdom to not seeking at all. Realising it is unwise to be absolutely sure of anything. “Only the madman is absolutely sure.” – Robert Anton Wilson

  7. Just being & inner knowing.

    The crystal tells me I’m at stage 5, so I don’t understand or experience the stages, past stage 4.

30 Types of Depression

These labels are according to the crystal / my guides, and are therefore not scientific, they are more shamanic in nature. Which means they are useful pointers, useful maps, and meaningful to such a degree that it’s possible to find solutions and ways forward.

If you feel you might have anything like this, I can ask my crystal about causes and solutions for you. Email me –, cost is whatever you want to pay.

  1. Internal Situational Depression.

    Treatment = Correctly identifying all contributing factors and changing the situation appropriately.
  2. External Situational Depression.

    Treatment = Correctly identifying all contributing factors and changing the situation appropriately.
  3. Emotional Depression.

  4. Physical Depression.

  5. A Depressed Right Brain.

  6. A Depressed Left Brain.

  7. Mental Depression.

  8. A Depressed Mind.

  9. A Depressed Brain.

  10. A Depressed Heart.

  11. A Depressed Spirit.

  12. A Depressed Nervous System.

  13. Bi-Polar.

  14. PTSD & CPTSD.

  15. Grief Depression.

  16. Post Natal Depression.

  17. The 12 Switches of Wholeness Depression.

    – A concept that my guides told me about. That we have these metaphorical switches inside us, and for various reasons they can be turned off, and leave us feeling very empty and confused.
  18. Existential Depression.

  19. Manic Depression.

  20. SAD syndrome, Seasonal Depression.

  21. Major Depression.

  22. Low Dopamine Depression.

    – L-tyrosine supplement might help.
  23. Low Serotonin Depression.

    – 5HTP supplement might help.
  24. A Depressed Mood.

  25. A Depressed Gut. (It’s like a second brain)

  26. A Depressed Higher Self.

  27. A Depressed Soul.

  28. Shamanic Depression.

    Treatment = Finish the work that’s required, finish the path.
  29. Empathic Depression. (Empath picking up the depression of someone else).

  30. PMS & PMDD

    – I have a treatment for this. Please email me if you are in need of this service:

There’s probably many more types of depression than these.

If you feel you might have anything like this, I can ask my crystal about causes and solutions for you. Email me –, cost is whatever you want to pay. Don’t struggle alone.

What Mind Fuel Is Becoming

Mind Fuel was my place to express my feelings, thoughts and intuitions about people, life, society and the world. And I enjoyed doing that, it helped me to think, grow and improve on my intuitions.

But I have been on a very unusual journey this last year, and it appeared I started to channel one day, via dowsing with a crystal. Since then I have worked with the crystal in healing myself and other people, getting clients, creating card decks and giving card readings, and discovering reams of information about people, life, society and the world, that seemed to come from outside of me. And most importantly that seemed to have real world positive effects on people. For example, healing depression.

It’s super interesting to me, and I want to transform this blog to post information that I learn from the crystal, starting with all the different types of depression that the crystal has told me about, and how to heal them.

The new content from the crystal will be on things like; mental, emotional & spiritual health, spirituality, shamanic healing, esotericism, psychedelics, dreams, psychology, mysticism, wisdom, meaning, self-awareness, self-development, self-actualisation etc.

It’s all pretty weird, I was a skeptic, cynic and atheist. But after the journey i’ve been on with everything i’ve directly experienced and cannot deny, I’m still skeptical and agnostic, but I also am open to the magick of the strange world of guidance from things like psychedelics, dreams, oracle & tarot card readings, divination, dowsing, chanelling, and praying. I’ve seen it work. It’s helped me hugely and others.

Mind Fuel is becoming ‘According To The Crystal’.

Which is a blog for my role as The Crystal Whisperer.